Just random thoughts..
Been very busy since monday which probably explains why I'm not feeling so well today (took 2 tabs of biogesic since this afternoon and I'm still nursing a splitting headache).. I'm really tired but at the same time enjoying most of the application adventures with Behng (still can't forget enfra's daft HR person who can't seem to answer my HMO questions, among others).
Btw, it's our BIRTHDAY today and I would not have remembered if she had not greeted me after dinner. Can't believe I let myself forget. 2 years and 6 months. Everyday is a new journey.
I remember when we were walking along San Miguel on our way to Gale and we were getting all frustrated from the commute to the hassle of each application process and I think we were in the midst of arguing where to go next. Behng, in a near-anger fit, held my hand and said "basta wag lang tayo mag-aaway Beh." And instantly my frustration disappeared. Behng has that effect on me.
We were looking for older songs a while back and came across a Korean song from an old movie called Sassy Girl. I remember Biggx telling me about this the first time and how she cried and could not stop her tears. Well, I did see the movie myself and found it endearing eversince, subtitles and all.
To all of you who can relate to loving, losing and finding love again, here's something to end this post..
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
House on Ellen
Here's something that gave me the laughs for a few minutes. And then I was back to sulking..
House on the Ellen show.
House on the Ellen show.
...
Been up for almost 2 hours now and I can't force myself to sleep anymore no matter how i try. I just have a lot of things on my mind since last night and it's making me upset just thinking about it. And it's hard not to think about because things are not okay.
It's like my soul has left my body. I feel empty.
It's like my soul has left my body. I feel empty.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
blast from the past
I've been sifting through all my old files today when I came across some of the short stories/fanfic i wrote a long time ago. Most are unfinished since I had a habit of starting sporadically, sometimes in the middle of the night, in the middle of a lecture in class, anywhere a plot/sub-plot would pop up in my head and I'd stop (literally) to write down an outline of how a scene would go. What's bad about this writing habit is that I'd have so many ideas about different stories that I'd leave one and jump on to the next never really concluding anything.. Well, except for the Ardent Souls trilogy that I have no soft copy of. The hard copy seems to be missing in my piles and piles of junk and I have no plans of transcribing because it is my longest written story and it will take me years. Anyway, here's a story I meant (as in intended to) to be hosted as an interactive story but never truly materialized. So to all of you who were once fan fiction followers, you'd probably understand where this came from..
started: 21 feb. 2001
title: none yet ( but i'll get to that) =)
*chapter 1*
"Unca Dave nooo!" came the almost muffled and giggly voice of Angela who wedged herself between me and the kitchen counter. I just about dropped the pitcher of juice i had actually intended to put back in the refrigerator when she came followed by Mr. Immature himself, Dave.
Dave continued tickling Angela, making her squirm in her already awkward position behind my legs. "You can run but you can't hide!!" Dave threatened.
"Aaaaaah! Unca Kwint! Unca Kwint!" screamed Angela, her grip wrinkling my pants. I put the pitcher on the counter and motioned for Angela to release my legs. I gave Dave this annoyed look. When will he start acting like his age? He's what, 18, just like me yet he insists on acting like the baby of the group still.
"Dave cut it out, ok?" I picked up Angela and took her in my arms. "Come here, sweetie," i told her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and buried her head in my shoulders, nuzzling softly.
"Clint you're no fun," Dave said.
"You know it's way past this girl's bedtime," i replied, rubbing Angela's back gently. I could feel her breathing rhythmically and knew she was probably on the verge of falling asleep.
"Is she asleep yet?" i asked Dave who walked behind me to see.
"Yeah ... almost," he said in almost a whisper.
"Oh. I better take her upstairs then." I walked towards the stairs where i was greeted by a rather in a hurry Bob who by the way had to brake as fast as he could when his senses had told him i was carrying a sleeping child. "Whoa."
"Whoa to you too. You almost gave me a heart attack!" he shot back, still panting.
"Shh ... you don't want to wake her do you?" I asked, knowing all too well how hard it is to make Angela go back to sleep once awakened by one stupid move.
"Well sorry, I was just looking for dad."
"He's in the living room watching news, why?" I asked.
"Phone. It's Scott."
My face changed in disbelief. Bob rushed to clarify. "Not our Scott. It's some guy from Weiner ..." his vioce trailed off as he started walking to the living room.
Scott. Wow. I haven't really heard that name for a while now ... except when it's just the three of us in the room and feel like remembering the old times ... the band ... the old life. Dad and Sheila never really talked about him much. At least, not directly in our faces. And sometimes it makes us think that maybe they know something they're not telling us about. That's something we can't help, right?
I went up to Angela's room which used to be the den at the end of the hall and placed her gently down the bed. She moaned quietly but slowly went back to her slumber. I then tucked her under the sheets but instead of leaving like i usually did, i just sat there and watched her.
She was so much like her father ... the same heart-shaped hairline ... that same almost translucent skin tone ... those blue blue eyes.
I closed my eyes and thought how much Scott is missing.
What's taking him too long anyways? He knows where to find us. He knows. Why can't he stop being so stubborn and just come back? If Dad and Sheila had any clue as to where Scott had gone, why would they let him be alone there, wherever that is? That's kind of pointless, right? So maybe they're just clinging onto the fact that he is still alive and has no desire to go home anytime soon. But I mean, isn't soon such a blurry thing? It's like saying it's any period between now and the end of time.
That phone call is all we have. Just one nasty phone call ...
--------------------------
"Scott? Scott? Is that you?"
"Yeah it's me ..."
"Where are you? Tell me Scott, we're all so worried and--"
"Well um ... i ... i really can't say, Clint ... Angela ... is she alright?"
"She's ok. Where--"
"Can you do me a favor, Clint. Please ...?"
"Um ... yeah, of course."
"Take care of my little girl. Just promise me that, Clint."
"Ok ... ok, i promise. But you have to tell me where you are."
"Don't worry about me. I think I'll be okay ... just tell the rest not to worry ... that i'm fine
..."
"No Scott, please we need to know where--"
"I really have to go now, Clint ..."
"No, wait! Don't hang up on me Scott ... please ..."
"Bye."
"Sco--"
"..."
more coming up ...
started: 21 feb. 2001
title: none yet ( but i'll get to that) =)
"Unca Dave nooo!" came the almost muffled and giggly voice of Angela who wedged herself between me and the kitchen counter. I just about dropped the pitcher of juice i had actually intended to put back in the refrigerator when she came followed by Mr. Immature himself, Dave.
Dave continued tickling Angela, making her squirm in her already awkward position behind my legs. "You can run but you can't hide!!" Dave threatened.
"Aaaaaah! Unca Kwint! Unca Kwint!" screamed Angela, her grip wrinkling my pants. I put the pitcher on the counter and motioned for Angela to release my legs. I gave Dave this annoyed look. When will he start acting like his age? He's what, 18, just like me yet he insists on acting like the baby of the group still.
"Dave cut it out, ok?" I picked up Angela and took her in my arms. "Come here, sweetie," i told her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and buried her head in my shoulders, nuzzling softly.
"Clint you're no fun," Dave said.
"You know it's way past this girl's bedtime," i replied, rubbing Angela's back gently. I could feel her breathing rhythmically and knew she was probably on the verge of falling asleep.
"Is she asleep yet?" i asked Dave who walked behind me to see.
"Yeah ... almost," he said in almost a whisper.
"Oh. I better take her upstairs then." I walked towards the stairs where i was greeted by a rather in a hurry Bob who by the way had to brake as fast as he could when his senses had told him i was carrying a sleeping child. "Whoa."
"Whoa to you too. You almost gave me a heart attack!" he shot back, still panting.
"Shh ... you don't want to wake her do you?" I asked, knowing all too well how hard it is to make Angela go back to sleep once awakened by one stupid move.
"Well sorry, I was just looking for dad."
"He's in the living room watching news, why?" I asked.
"Phone. It's Scott."
My face changed in disbelief. Bob rushed to clarify. "Not our Scott. It's some guy from Weiner ..." his vioce trailed off as he started walking to the living room.
Scott. Wow. I haven't really heard that name for a while now ... except when it's just the three of us in the room and feel like remembering the old times ... the band ... the old life. Dad and Sheila never really talked about him much. At least, not directly in our faces. And sometimes it makes us think that maybe they know something they're not telling us about. That's something we can't help, right?
I went up to Angela's room which used to be the den at the end of the hall and placed her gently down the bed. She moaned quietly but slowly went back to her slumber. I then tucked her under the sheets but instead of leaving like i usually did, i just sat there and watched her.
She was so much like her father ... the same heart-shaped hairline ... that same almost translucent skin tone ... those blue blue eyes.
I closed my eyes and thought how much Scott is missing.
What's taking him too long anyways? He knows where to find us. He knows. Why can't he stop being so stubborn and just come back? If Dad and Sheila had any clue as to where Scott had gone, why would they let him be alone there, wherever that is? That's kind of pointless, right? So maybe they're just clinging onto the fact that he is still alive and has no desire to go home anytime soon. But I mean, isn't soon such a blurry thing? It's like saying it's any period between now and the end of time.
That phone call is all we have. Just one nasty phone call ...
--------------------------
"Scott? Scott? Is that you?"
"Yeah it's me ..."
"Where are you? Tell me Scott, we're all so worried and--"
"Well um ... i ... i really can't say, Clint ... Angela ... is she alright?"
"She's ok. Where--"
"Can you do me a favor, Clint. Please ...?"
"Um ... yeah, of course."
"Take care of my little girl. Just promise me that, Clint."
"Ok ... ok, i promise. But you have to tell me where you are."
"Don't worry about me. I think I'll be okay ... just tell the rest not to worry ... that i'm fine
..."
"No Scott, please we need to know where--"
"I really have to go now, Clint ..."
"No, wait! Don't hang up on me Scott ... please ..."
"Bye."
"Sco--"
"..."
more coming up ...
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i was already in bed earlier, around 10pm (HBO's MI:3 playing in the background) when my mom came up and told me they were going to take Earl to Medical City since his stomache pain has not subsided since late afternoon. naturally, i could not sleep anymore. they have not returned yet and it makes me worry.
so while waiting i went on to look up what could possibly be wrong with my brother here and since i have been watching too many Grey's Anatomy, back episodes of ER and House and i suspected it is stomache flu that he's having. so while browsing on all the possible related diseases to stomache ache, i managed to scare myself even more.
it's almost 1am and i'm still waiting for my family to get home.
i hope it's nothing serious.
so while waiting i went on to look up what could possibly be wrong with my brother here and since i have been watching too many Grey's Anatomy, back episodes of ER and House and i suspected it is stomache flu that he's having. so while browsing on all the possible related diseases to stomache ache, i managed to scare myself even more.
it's almost 1am and i'm still waiting for my family to get home.
i hope it's nothing serious.
Friday, June 06, 2008
Last day in ICT
Last day pics with PA people (May 31, 2008):
dianne.jhayvee.me
jaya.tosca.jm.macke.me.dianne.shong.josette.badeth.fritz
my desk and all the clutter 
nobody's desk but we put sorted out things there
jaya.jhayvee.tosca.me
corie.jhayvee.macke.dianne.jaya.tosca.jm
same group
macke.josette.badeth.tosca.me.dianne
macke.me.jhayvee.dianne.vann.rye.jhun.mel
macke.jhayvee.me on the way to gale
macke and me (the next day) at Shang