My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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so nobody wants to ask me a question? try "how are you feeling keiel?" and i will tell you how i feel even though the question is WAY loaded for a blog answer.

im through with my defense. i wont even post what i got since everybody in both blocks are talking about it.. and i assume they are going to talk about it for quite sometime. i admit i am disappointed and honestly felt like crying the moment i left the conference room. i've never felt this ROTTEN and HELPLESS in a looong time. i just.. i've told myself over and over that it's gonna be ok, but it's not. really. and it's not even about competing anymore. i just felt i did a good job today--even impressed a certain PhD panelist whom everyone feared--and that my efforts should be equally compensated in the same manner that everyone who took their thesis defense expects. sadly the grounds are not even to begin with. i guess this feeling i have right now (not really anger but more of frustration) stems from the fact that i know i deserved better.

im not happy but life goes on.

to dr. dona, (if you happen to come across this), thank you for supporting me through and through and for (ok, i think im gonna cry now..) *ahem* making me feel less rotten whenever i come to you with gargantuan whines and complaints and for pushing me whenever i feel like giving up already. tinaas ko yung banderang pula kaso di ata nila nakita.. =)

i'd also like to say thanks to the eco people who have shown me their support today (you know who you are).. please know that i am overwhelmed by all your kinds words.. sobrang nakakataba ng puso na naiinis kayo on my behalf.. pero ok lang yan guys.. ganyan talaga buhay eh la tayong magagawa. mahal ko kayo.

to lara and eric.. for the texts wishing me luck this morning..THANK YOU.

so that's my day.. i don't feel so good but i know it's gonna get better.

You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.


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Ask me one question. One question, and I will tell the absolute, utmost, unfiltered truth for the answer. This question can be anything about me or my life.

obsessive compulsive


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last post from my last blog..

2003/12/28 @ 11:33:23 [ no comment - Edit - Delete ]
by kL (kL), in General


mood: okay. really. :)
background music: sounds from NBA Live


Well...had one really crappy day that could have colored the entire week, were it not for the fact that it was near the end, and no one else will make a big deal out of it if I won't. I made the mistake of making it, in a really big embarassing way, but it's over now, and I'm glad I didn't commit it to permanence by writing to bitch about it yet again. One, because like I keep saying, all I do anymore is bitch and I don't like that any more than the next person to read this blog, and two, because I refuse to let myself be defined by negativity. Or by positivity for that matter. I will just not be defined by anything. I'm glad to say that I'm back, and I'm ok now.

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i think il be staying here for a while.. =) check back every now and then for updates! see yah!

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