Friday, August 07, 2009

Goodbye President Cory

360 view of the Filipino people saying goodbye to former President Corazon C. Aquino.


Fortune cookie says..

Message found in fortune cookie:

Your heart will always make itself known through your words.

Monday, August 03, 2009

Closing Cycles (by Paulo Coelho)

Stolen from Mariel's FB. It's a good read and awfully makes so much sense.

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One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

It's back

I should've written yesterday but was too numb to do so.

I came home Friday with bad news. I was told my physical exam results were back and that I can't report for work unless I can present a fit to work notice. It's my x-ray. Apparently, they saw the same thing they saw 5 years ago. It was -possible Koch's infection of unknown origin- that's what I read from the results.

My dad said my uncle had the same findings 20 years ago, and when he had himself checked a couple months back because he had recurring coughs, the same thing appeared on his x-ray. He was informed that those were just scars from his previous case and that he was going to be fine. (I refuse to call it "infection" as it makes me nervous).

And so from when I got home last Friday, I couldn't take my mind off it, try as I may. I found it impossible to sleep. The last time my xray looked like this, I was asked to resign from work and rest for 6 months. In the past I was able to haggle 3 months rest on the condition that I take my medications with no fail.

I can't be asked to resign from my job. I can't afford it. There's just too many bills to pay and I have people depending on me. And what happens to me when I lose my job? I'll probably lose someone too, eventually.

So these things have kept me awake for the last 2 nights.

I'm not sure what to do or if there's anything that I can do to stop things from falling apart, really.

I'll visit the specialist tomorrow. Not knowing what's gonna happen sure scares the hell out of me but I know it's out of my hands now.

Like any other defining moment in my life, I'm choosing to leave it up to Him. He hasn't let me down anyway.

_______________________

Keep breathing
I said that I'll always be there
Now I mean it more than before
there's a future worth fighting for

Don't be scared
I know how you must be feeling
No one to help you carry the pain
I'm coming to save the day

Saturday, August 01, 2009

from myden

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
~ oo naman.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
~ twitter. haha.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
~ hindi gaano kase absent ako kagabi.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
~ tatay ko kanina, para sabihin na nandito nako

5.What is the last thing someone bought you?
~ starbucks coffee jelly

6.What’s something that can always make you feel better?
~ getting answers. knowing tomorrow's gonna be okay

7. What are you excited for?
~ hindi ako excited.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
~ Work. Mega, bumili ng cardigan sa Mango. Ortho, nagpa-adjust. Metrowalk, bili dvds. Umuwi ng mga 5.30 ng hapon at sinalubong ng bad news.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
~ medyo matagal na pero si behng

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
~ ripe mango

11. Have a best friend?
~ i used to be obsessed with this term before, thinking i was different if i didn't have a person to call my bestfriend. but that was a long time ago when i was stupid. it's all good now. and to answer the question (and daming segway), yes, i think i do.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
~ minsan. ginawa na akong praning ng tadhana.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
~ kahit sino naman e.. kahit dogs. cats. love birds. kahit si totoro naiinlove siguro.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
~ hmmm wala akong maisip

15. What time is it right this second?
~ 2011PM

16. What do you want right now?
~ ang maging kampante.

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
~ hindi ko maalala

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
~ taken

19. When was the last time you cried?
~ kanina lang

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
~ i think so

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
~ i have trust issues.

22. How fast does your mind change?
~ not too fickle.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
~ oo. nakakabaliw.

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
~ no, i'm not okay. =(

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
~ kasi hindi makuntento. o kaya people are just plain polygamous

26. Tell me what's on your mind.
~ ang dami.. parang sasabog na nga utak ko sa dami e

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
~ i dunno.. preparing for xmas? haha ang aga! kala ko pa naman hindi ako excited

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
~ oo minsan yung nabibili kong shorts and tshirts, pang boys. pero di pa ako nakasuot ng damit ng lalaking kakilala ko.

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend
~ wait di ako sure sinong number 1 top friend ko..

30. When is your next road trip?
~ wish ko lang may time for roadtrip

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
~ oo may ilan ilan din.. karamihan bading.

32. How's your heart?
~ kabado

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
~ sometimes

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
~ oo. (wow confident!) pero oo nga. siguro naman.

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
~ ligo

36. When will your next kiss take place?
~ hindi ko pinaplano yung mga ganyan bagay.. basta it just happens.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
~ nagawa ko pa lang after reading the question.

38. Who do you not get along with?
~ ayoko mag-name drop pero meron.

39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
~ "Crush is a trending topic? Haha that's awesome! Thanks you guys! =)"

40. What are you wearing right now?
~ pambahay ng shorts and tshirt

41.Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
~ no. it's been worthwhile

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
~ in bulacan

43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
~ tobey

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
~ weird. nanibago kase hindi ako pumasok na dapat nung time na nagising ako, lunch ko pa lang sa office nun

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
~ oo

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
~ i know it's a bad habit but i do it sometimes, lalo pag kinakabahan at di mapakali

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
~ tulog nako 10pm pa lang. sobrang pagod

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
~ MKJL

49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
~ Babuy

50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
~ everyday. bungisngis ako eh.. konting bagay lang natatawa na ako.. lalo pag humirit na si beh ng "spreadie" jokes nya

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
~ depende kung bakit nag-walk out.

52. Last awkward moment?
~ kahapon after reading a text from somebody sa office

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
~ no

54. Do you have good vision?
~ no. as per the last check up i had (which btw, was not too long ago), i have astignatism in my left eye and i am certified color blind.

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
~ no

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
~ wala pa.

57. Are you Irish?
~ nope

58. Do you use chap stick?
~ noon.

59. Do you have any scars?
~ yes

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
~ napatawad ko na. pero i don't think we'll be friends again.

61.Do you laugh off embarrassing moments?
~ yes

62. Name the last person to text you?
~ fherrie

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
~ ewan ko.. depende kung okay naman kayo.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
~ yes. ganito itsura ko pag nagpapasyal ng mga aso sa umaga.

65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
~ single lang yung bed ko so parang lahat ng sides nagagamit! haha

66. Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
~ oo, hihirit lang si behng, matatawa na ko

67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
~ gigising

68. Do you fall for people easily?
~ not really. it takes a lot for me to like someone.. mahilig kase ako maglista ng mga sablay

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
~ yes while sleeping

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
~ okay naman ako ngayon but i guess it's just normal to look back and miss some things from time to time

71. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
~ hmm.. depende, i tend to think before verbalizing espacially kung mean yung naiisip ko.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
~ save the day - david archuleta

73. Want someone back in your life?
~ andrew and my lolo. nakakamiss lang =(

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
~ hindi pa siguro. monday kase ako hahatulan e.

75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
~ color blind kase ako so ang hula ko beige/grey-ish sha. but i can be very wrong.

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
~ yes

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
~ pag yung kung sino sino lang wala naman akong pakialam mashado..it only matters if it's someone i really care about.

78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
~ oo there's a handful of them

79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
~ naturally happy

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
~ sha lang okay na. hindi ko na kailangan ng iba. mushy kung mushy!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Fangirl




WOW. So the fangirl in me came out again.. I love this tribute.. This is probably the best one any other David fan has come up with..*melts* Thank you MichelinMarie for posting!

Notice how he gets all emotional in the end.. He made me cry!

I love Josh Groban but I like D's version better (because I'm biased.. haha). But seriously, it's a beautiful song and I'm glad he did a cover. I liked how he said "To my fans, I just wanna thank them..I could thank them forever but I can't thank them enough.." D has given so much of himself to the people who support him and it's just fitting that the fans love him so many times back. He has such a good heart and he deserves all the good things happening to him now.

So now I'm sharing David's magic with you. Spread the love! Ü

Monday, July 13, 2009

blog = FAIL

See, I'm really a failure at keeping this updated. I remember keeping a daily journal when I was younger that I'd lugged around, even in school for when the lectures get boring and I had loads of scribble time. Now I think it's just pure laziness that I don't write as often. I dunno, when I think of something and decide to blog about it (by the time I reach the computer to type it in), my train of thought is already messed up and I can't figure out how to start over. I guess I'm just OC (obsessive-compulsive) that way. And I'm not content to rearrange sequences of what I wanted to say, I want them written like how I thought them up in my head and so it doesn't help that I have short-term memory. If I can't do it this way, I lose the urge to write.

I'm afraid my brain's just going to turn to mush sometime soon.


Monday, June 29, 2009

tweet tweet tweet!

I think people should really dump their friendster accounts (i haven't updated mine in months), jump on the facebook bandwagon and start twittering. Seriously.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I'm baaack!

To the 3 people reading my blog.. i'm back. lol �

There's been so many things that have happened and I don't know where to begin.. Guess I'll just address things as they come up.

First off, I still owe Lara the David Cook (side) of my concert ramblings. Sorry Ube, been so swamped I barely have time to sit down and actually compose. But I will get to that this weekend, promise.

Next, I was sucked into the whole Twitter hype and even discovered how I can get updates of the people I follow through my mobile at no extra cost (I just have to pay for the unlimited service/week or month, which is not bad). If you're interested, you can look it up at SunAlertz.com.

Also, if you wanna follow me there, I am @keiel. �

Main reason for me tweeting is because @DavidArchie tweets like a maniac and it's funny to follow. It keeps me updated about the outside world as well. By outside world, I meant the goings-on outside my call-center life.

What else.. Oh, I resigned from Access Worldwide last June 21 and joined ETrade Information Services, LLC (the elite. --AWWC people are so gonna kill me. LOL!). It was a smooth transition which most of my friends do not understand just because I am still in the same office, even the same floor. Let me try to clarify. Access Worldwide was hired by Etrade to handled their Outsourced Customer Service. But now I work directly with the clients, which, if you are still with awwc, makes me a client, right? haha i don't know. Sorry if that's not that comprehensible I just got home and will be leaving in exactly an hour to go to work again..

Anyhow, life's been pretty busy. I was chosen to be part of the Trading Team that doen't just service customers but can now actually place trades for them online. Requirements include passing series 7 and 63, LSA and TLSA. You can consider it a kind of promotion because it definitely entails bigger responsibility and right not I am still trying to get the hang of things. To say this is challenging is an understatement. I was able to place my first trade 2 days ago and man was I shaking as I wrote the order in my *blotter. haha. I did screw up little details on the trade but nothing too serious.

So that's what's keeping me on my toes lately. And that's another good reason why the weekend seems so far to me. I just want to stay at home and not have to think about another trade. Also, I need to find the book Tiff recommended (The Time Traveler's Wife) as I have nothing to read for the weekend. Maybe I'll be able to visit the bookstore before then.

I also go to talk to an old friend who called from Canada a week ago and we got to catch up like the old times. Hooray for unused phone cards! �

See, told you this was gonna be random.


*blotter - sheet of paper where customer orders are entered for Principal approval before the actual order can be entered online.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Alright count off 1 - 40,000..


I know this is past due but I'll tell you about it anyways.

It was the same night of my 10th high school reunion and though I was ready for former high school friends to publicly disown me, I went and saw the two Davids in what many will call the concert of the year. Originally, the reunion was scheduled from 1pm-6pm and a week before the concert it was changed to an evening cocktail affair. I mean, I know the organizers had the batch's best interest in mind but it was a toss up for me and I had to choose the event that's less likely to have a repeat, if at all. I had plans of dropping by the reunion after the concert but it did start late (Filipino time?) and it ended right before midnight. By this time my batchmates have all gone home.

Anyway, enough of the explaining. I've been bashed in FB several times for ditching the reunion for the Davids but I still cannot get that night out of my head because it was just spectacular! Ü I mean, having the Davids in a back-to-back concert has never happened before and I had the opportunity to witness it in Manila. I just couldn't pass up the chance to be there, it was gonna be historical.

And so Carol and I arrived at the concert grounds 40 minutes before the show was to start. As an experienced concert-goer, I did not want getting there too early (while the harsh sun is still up) since it was an open field and it was summertime, I feared fried skin. And plus I did not want to encounter the groupies and the posers who let you know how they have rubbed elbows with the artists about to perform without you even asking. I mean, heller, they'd even show you their cams and pics that they've met. C'MON! ISDK (I simply don't care). I thought we were successful in avoiding those kinds of people but apparently Carol was a magnet. There was this guy beside hwe who claims he met Archie in the US a week before. Such a poser, Archie was in the UK the week prior so I wish he had his 411 right before he decided to brag. Oh well.

Our tickets were for the Gold area (free-seating) so when we got there all the seats have been taken which is odd. Aren't they supposed to have the same amount of seats as the released tickets? Free-seating does not mean seat-less, right? I let it pass. I mean, who uses a chair in a concert anyway? They do come in handy to stand on but I had a different plan.

It was so easy to slip near the metal fences/dividers that separated our area from the Platinum seats just beacuse the concert is about to start and the bouncers were busy ushering people to thei respective areas. At that time there were less than 20 people from our area who stood where were stood but as the show inched closer, more and more people walked to our area and sealed our places in front. So if you think about it, we were almost in Platinum which is definitely a bonus.

And so we were perched on the metal fences because there was no more room to back off a bit and because we wanted to be in front we had to endure this position the entire time. haha. At around 8:45pm, Archie's band came out and played Touch My Hand. Everyone stood from their seats, most stood on their seats to welcome Archie Filipino-style. You can tell he was ecstatic seeing the number of people who came to watch.
 
Archie's set was a good combination of fast paced and slow songs. Here is the setlist and you can click on them to view the videos (all taken by booradleigh except for Crush which is from the Team Archie Channel):


I definitely enjoyed Archie's set just because I knew most of his songs (hence I was able to participate in the singing) and seeing him perform them live was just too awesome. His voice was flawless! The boy can sing the phonebok and I'd still be floored. He was that good.

I especially liked Barriers and how he made little actions on specific lines. Zero Gravity was also a surprise since the song has not been offically released yet. It was a very dance-able song and a lot of people enjoyed it. To Be With You is also very notable. I liked how Kendra (keyboardist) sang the melodies that Kara Dioguardi originally sang on the album. All in all, Archie's set was well though of. It was a good mix of songs that kept the crowd interested and upbeat. When it came to the final song (Crush), you can definitely hear the crowd react, each person wishing it wasn't the last.

There was a one hour intermisison after Archie's set and there was a fireworks display that kept everyone looking up for a good 30 minutes. There were also all sorts of booths selling food, t-shirts, drinks and there was even a TGIF booth that I had planned on checking out but my feet were permanently perched on the metal dividers and there were a hundred people pushing up against me that I had to forget about my Friday's cravings.

In a couple more minutes, Cook appeared from below the stage, holding his guitar, and took the crowd for another ride that evening. He had proven that night why he deserved the American Idol crown. He was amazing! I have been an Archie fan back in Season 7 of AI and Cook's performance that evening made me change my mind about him. I just had this impression while he was still doing the show that he was a bit full of himself, getting all that positive feedback each week and plus I didn't really like Light On when I first heard it. So pass me the salt and pepper I'm already eating my words. I have his album alternately on repeat with Archie's album via ipod.  haha.

So there you go. I still would need to find links to videos for Cook's performance. Lara will kill me otherwise.