i have a dilemma.

i was told by shivs to be nicer to this certain person kc ang bitch ko daw mashado and that the reason i sort of 'abuse' the person is cuz i know na crush ako nun.. so i was like, "di kaya!" but of course we all know shivs is correct. i mean i don't deliberately be a bitch to the person.. itz more like friendly messing, if you know what i mean.. lam mo yung lagi ko lang sha binabara and stuff like that.. basta iniinis, in short. but i do that all the time with all the guys in my batch noh so itz super normal lang for me.. anyway, after that conversation with shivs i vowed to be nicer to the guy.. so ahyun nice naman ako recently.. kaso nakasama ata.. kc mas FC (feeling close) na sha ngayon.. like 2 days ago he kissed the top of my head again when he arrived.. shempre i was busy typing something tas may biglang hahawak ng ulo mo sabay kiss. ano ba naman yun diba? tas nung end of shift nakasalubong ko sha sa may door tas sabi ba naman, "hi baby." HELLO. kelan pa diba? feeler. hay freak out ang lola mo.

last night he called me sa cel just to say that he can't make it to work cuz he was sick daw.. tas sabi ba naman.. "baby, i'll miss you" HELLOOOO?! talk about hibang talaga. ibang klase sha talaga..

in today's shift naman kinukulit ako at kinikiliti while i was doing calls so shempre pinapalo ko sha kc hello, im making calls diba? tas sabi ba naman "sungit mo naman nilalambing lang naman kita eh." HELLO FOR THE Nth TIME PEOPLE. so tumahimik nalang ako cuz asar nako at that time.. mamaya sabi nya look at my phone daw.. tas nagtext sha, inviting me to a movie tonight before the shift.. Shark's Tale daw.. eh la lang tinatamad ako.. gusto ko yung movie kaso hassle before the shift cuz i need all the sleep hours i could get. di ko nga nareplyan cuz nagkasunod-sunod yung mga benta ko.. til the time we ended our shift.. nawala rin kc sha so di ko na nasabi na bka may dvd nun at watch nalang namin sa portable player nya.

yung dilemma.. la lng.. nkakailang lang lahat ng pangyayari.. chka bka nga magtampo yun cuz di ako nagreply sa movie invite nya.. ewan ko.. ano ba to.

i need a lovelife na nga siguro noh para di na maka-magnet ng weirdos.

ang tanong, saan kaya ako makakahanap ng guy na gusto ko at di pa taken?