was browsing through shiva's blog a while back and was not permitted to post a comment again.. kaya eto i decided to blog nalang since there's nothing else to mess with (tulog si anj sa batcave at mag-isa ako sa room..).

i've been to the point where i didn't know what to do with my life also.. after leaving my first job i enjoyed the new-found freedom of bumming and just not worrying about anything the next day because hey, i was just home, well-fed, well-entertained, well-equipped(dvds,tv,radio). if i wanted to see my friends i could just ask for allowance because of the excuse that i didn't have a job yet.. but it became tiring for me too.. everyday went that way for almost three months.. it's also quite excusable because i was recovering too (i had a lung thingy back in May --better now though.)

so one morning i decided to look for a job. the next day i had one. cool, huh? and i know a lot of people do not understand my work, much less accept it, but i enjoy it here. really. it's not the pay that lured me into going here again but more like the people.. and the challenge of actually proving that i'm worth being in the Household Credit Protect team (which is btw, the best account in ICT Manila). it's funny how slow i started and to tell you honestly, i was thinking of resigning after my first week because i've never felt so stupid in my life.. i mean, it's like everyone else was coping but i wasn't. that felt so bad. but i didn't give up. only losers give up. now i'm just waiting for my first commissions(which i didn't really expect) because i'm fucking selling now!haha.

well anyway, i could go on gabbing about where i am now but the baseline is, tomorrow i still wouldn't know what it really is i wanna do with my life.. you know that feeling that you likeit where you are but you know something's missing? i guess that's what life is all about.. in the search of the one thing that we feel could make us complete, we come across experiences--no matter how tiny they are, that weave our lives into this one big, beautiful tapestry.