slept 6 hours straight today, which compensates for the other 2 days i averaged 4 hours.

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the guard won't let me and biggx enter the floor permises because he didn't think we floor coaches.haha. it took quite a show to get him convinced that we needed to do the scorecards tonight.

anyways, i left home at around 10.30 because i sat and watched The Chronicles of Narnia after i took a shower at 8. i didn't get to finish it though. so that's what i'll be doing later on when i get home.

yesterday was (i don't even know how to describe it, really..) uhm.. terrible, i guess. i didn't speak with my team (which was probably the result of me being angry at someone).. i know that was wrong but my entire angry system just got triggered by the fact that the team wasn't performing and yet they were noisy and slacking around. so i dunno what devil possessed me and i hit the roof right then and there.

sorry team.

but hey, Sarah reached quota, right? hehe.

so anyways, i was having a hard time doing my job and at the same time thinking about the problem i had.. the bad thing bout me is that when i'm mad, i don't function.. everything just shuts down. so i was avoiding this person the whole day.. i figured if she was mad at me as well the least i could do is give her space. so space it is. this went on the entire shift and it ma made me much crazier and irate and depressed and lonely.

i was driving kaydee crazy with all my questions as well. good thing she's not the breakdown type. that's more like me.

so i got her the last of my presents.. finally. i hope she likes it. shouldn've given the rest yesterday but i was too afraid to come close.

we're fine now. turns out she wasn't directly angry at me but the timing and the situation.

i'm just glad we're OKAY. kinda missed her the whole day yesterday.

i've got reports to do.. so i'll just try and be back later if time allows.