licensed (part 2)

And so I took the 7 yesterday and passed (thank God).  I just about gave my friends a heart-attack by keeping them in suspense about the results because they were all scheduled to take the exam a day earlier which left me taking it on my own.. well not really because i had 8 other people from my batch but no one really close enough to share the ANXIETY with. haha. 

I semi-slept the night to before to review and plus I was such a nervous-wreck I couldn't get my mind off the many what if's (what if i don't pass? will i resign? will i wait to re-take it? will i have a team to go back to? what will everyone think?). So I went to work looking like a zombie and 'twas like my soul had left my body that morning. I couldn't feel a thing. My hands were ice cold and they felt no sensation. I barely touched my breakfast for fear of barfing any moment. I refused to drink anything --I did not like the idea of taking a bathroom break in the middle of probably the most important exam of my life. I've never felt this nervous/scared/apprehensive in a long time and somehow it felt relieving knowing these feelings make the experience more real.

My first set was tough.. not a lot of computations but more on analysis which consumed most of my time. I took the mandatory 30-minute break (after the first 3 hours) feeling dejected already. At this point I already visualized a 38% final score on the whole thing. The second part was more on options which is my up of tea as compared to the terminologies and rules and regulations. I almost comsumed the entire 3 hours since i had to manually compute for the answers.

The clincher though, was the last 10 seconds after submitting my exam where I had to wait for my scores to appear on the screen.. It was the longest 10 seconds of my life. And so with closed eyes, i held my breath and prayed. There were a lot of texts on the screen when i first opened my eyes to see and I was kinda confused where to look for the results itself.. haha.. it took around 3 seconds before i finally saw the word "PASS" beside my actual score and i had to exhale a huge mass of breath since i've been holding it for a while. Again, however elated I was, I closed my eyes, bowed down my head and prayed. It wasn't all me you know.Ü

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