thursday:

took the nerve-wracking P&G exam with k4 (sheryl, mere, carol and marj). hmm.. too much math there but i finished on time naman.. even had extra minutes to fill out the application form which required LOTS of thinking again. twas ok, really. except that we had to work under time pressure and since math is my BEST subject, i almost had a nervous breakdown. towards the end of the test i suddenly forgot the sum of 6 and 1. wahaha. =) anyway, i am not banking on the possibility that i will make it there considering that a friend said only those who get 90+% in the score chart make it to the interviews. well, at least i tried.

friday:

went through the whole Convergys ordeal naman with Rev.. our test schedule was at 8-1030pm but we were there early so we ate dinner muna.. astig nung cafe sa Enterprise.. may band ba naman!! hehe. lots of alanis songs nga yung set eh.. saya. feeling ko highschool ako ulit. hehe. anyway, after we ate, i changed into business attire (dahil naka-uniform pako nun) then we went to look for the office na.. everything about it was intimidating.. from the "ENGLISH ZONE" signs to the creepy one-sided glass-door knobs to even the english speaking security guard. hehe. oh yeah,even he had the twang. fastforward to the simulation itself.. benta!! ang kupad ko magtype so i had to repeat what the client was saying.. minus daw sa points yun pero what the hell noh. hehe.. masaya naman yung test especially the grammar and spelling bit. =) so yun after 2 1/2 hours we finished everything.. results were even given that night din.. i passed naman and i'm up for a series of screenings already. SCARY PA DIN. i feel i won't find my way out of the building on my own.

Um ok. So I seem to have effectively killed off my blog in my absence. No matter, will try to revive it somehow. It's just that the past few weeks were hell. Now it's...still hell, I guess I'm just getting better at ignoring it.
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You know what, you're weird. I know I am too, but who's weirder is still subject to argument, Yes, you, I haven't completely given up on my lurking suspicion that you read this. If you don't, then I'm nuts, but then again you already knew that. Why must everything we talk about be mindlessly trivial or earth-shatteringly serious? Nakakapagod din yun a.

rainbow

RAINBOW - South Border

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world, no no
Breaking down, breaking in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all, no no

Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin with just love
We can really never have it all, no no hoh hoh

REFRAIN
But, oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens, life goes on and on
And so, baby, just smile
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me

CHORUS
Take a little time, baby
See the butterfly's colors
Listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns, there will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Hoh hoh hoh hoh hoh

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather can be so good or bad
But, baby, this is life, oh, don't get mad, no no no

REFRAIN
'Cause, oh, can't you see (can't you see)
That no matter what happens, life goes on and on
So, baby, please smile (just smile)
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me

[Repeat CHORUS]

BRIDGE
Life's full of challenges, not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my, dear (no no no)
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm 'cause you're so
My faith in you is clear
So they say once again this world's beautiful
And let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

[Repeat CHORUS]

 

 

 

 

 

 

retreat pics!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

pics...pics...pics!!!

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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so nobody wants to ask me a question? try "how are you feeling keiel?" and i will tell you how i feel even though the question is WAY loaded for a blog answer.

im through with my defense. i wont even post what i got since everybody in both blocks are talking about it.. and i assume they are going to talk about it for quite sometime. i admit i am disappointed and honestly felt like crying the moment i left the conference room. i've never felt this ROTTEN and HELPLESS in a looong time. i just.. i've told myself over and over that it's gonna be ok, but it's not. really. and it's not even about competing anymore. i just felt i did a good job today--even impressed a certain PhD panelist whom everyone feared--and that my efforts should be equally compensated in the same manner that everyone who took their thesis defense expects. sadly the grounds are not even to begin with. i guess this feeling i have right now (not really anger but more of frustration) stems from the fact that i know i deserved better.

im not happy but life goes on.

to dr. dona, (if you happen to come across this), thank you for supporting me through and through and for (ok, i think im gonna cry now..) *ahem* making me feel less rotten whenever i come to you with gargantuan whines and complaints and for pushing me whenever i feel like giving up already. tinaas ko yung banderang pula kaso di ata nila nakita.. =)

i'd also like to say thanks to the eco people who have shown me their support today (you know who you are).. please know that i am overwhelmed by all your kinds words.. sobrang nakakataba ng puso na naiinis kayo on my behalf.. pero ok lang yan guys.. ganyan talaga buhay eh la tayong magagawa. mahal ko kayo.

to lara and eric.. for the texts wishing me luck this morning..THANK YOU.

so that's my day.. i don't feel so good but i know it's gonna get better.

You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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